OCTOBER 1ST
I look at myself. My past and my heart. Loath, sadness and fear fills my heart. I was conceived , I had the Adam's blood flowing through my veins. Despite knowing the law and light. My personal desires led me to the lies and deep darkness. I enjoyed the pleasures of life. Luxury, lust, longing for fame, shamelessness, lies, greed all had filled my dirty heart. I was indeed a hypocrite. Sometimes I could come to my senses. And see this deeds were wrong. But I had not yet killed my will. My desires were always burning me up. So I gave in. Guilt became a close scent. Many thoughts of pure evil filled my head. I harmed my Lord's temple. Leaving scars and marks. They brought more guilt. I could clearly see am not fit for paradise. I was waiting for the worst. But one day I heard a bishop say. Faith is of vain if there is no self confidence. The message gave me a lesson. I need faith in my life. I have to have self confidence. Another day came. A ma...